falling off the wagon

so as most of my readers are aware that i have been really trying to get on track with my health, weight, etc.

at the beginning of the year, like many other people coming of their freshly inked resolutions, bought myself a gym membership. and there i was, 4 mornings a week sweating away from 5am to 6am before work.

a few coworkers got together and we decided to start an office version of the biggest loser.

i was doing awesome! and then at the beginning of february i got really sick with the flu and missed a whole week at the gym. during this time i wasn't too worried about my weight loss because, well i couldn't keep anything down anyway. but when i finally was able to, thats when i fell off the wagon. i still wasn't up to going to the gym but i did some workouts at home (situps, planks, etc.)

within the past week (which marks 3 weeks without a trip to the gym) and i've realized that i have an addiction to food. not just eating it, but all things that encompass it. i like to look at it, buy it and of course eat it. if something looks good, i eat it. if it tastes good, i eat even more of it. and then i eat until i feel so full that i'm going to throw up and on occasion i have thrown up from overeating.

only a few more months until a decision must be made.